I am sure everyone out there has been judged at some point in their life and I am sure you have judged someone before also. No one is an saint. But there does come a point when judging becomes bullying and that is no good.
Lately, I have felt bullied. I feel like everything I do or say is being criticized. My work, life, parenting skills. It can really get you down.
I still have extra baby weight from my pregnancy. It brings me down often. Don't get me wrong.. I am not severely over-weight. I just have a few pudgy parts. I am not the thin, curvy, and toned girl I was a few years ago. I am still curvy though! Lol.
Recently, I wanted to join the Airforce. So, I went to talk to a recruiter. I was turned away and treated like shit because of my weight. He literally told me "You need to lose weight. Oh! You work at Sonic? You should cut back on the Sonic food". I was stunned and pissed! How dare this man tell me I am fat! Who is he to judge me? What gives him the right? His words did get to me though. I was heartbroken. I have tried diets and working out but I lose my motivation. I have come to a conclusion though. Yes, I may have extra weight, but I am still beautiful! My son and husband will love me no matter what. I need to learn to love the new me! If,I lose the weight good for me! If not, I shouldn't get depressed and hate myself. I gave birth to a child and not just any child! My son! My amazing, smart, and healthy little boy! If the extra weight and stretch marks are not worth it than there is something wrong with me! Lol!
I think everyone should have a good outlook on people and theirselves! Personality is what really matters! If you are an ugly person on the inside than I believe you are just as ugly in the inside!
BUT... If you are kind, honest, and trustworthy person it will shine through! No matter how you look!
*You have a big nose?Well better to smell with! :)
*You are short? Well hey so am I!
* You are going bald? Well, that means less money to spend on haircuts, gel, and a brush!
* You are covered in tattoos? Good for you! Express yourself! It doesn't make you a bad person!
* You are in a wheelchair? Let's pimp your ride! :) (hey don't judge me I have seen it)
*You have braces? Wait until those puppies come off then you are going to have a great smile!
But anyways! No matter what may bring you down.. There is always a better perspective!
Do not let someone judge you! Do not be criticized or bullied. Throw a comeback their way! Add humor or optimism. It will make you feel 10x better! You are beautiful, smart, funny, fun, and talented! Show them that side of you! Prove it to yourself!
Do not stand for being the butt of jokes! They are not perfect! No one is! Everyone has flaws! It defines us!
So flaunt what you got! Show the world your big nose, bald head, wheelchair tricks, and great smile! Be proud of who you are, because there is only one of YOU! That means you are special edition! One of a kind! You are worth ALOT! You are like that Star Wars collectible! Lol!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
The Poem
My husband wrote me this poem and I really want to share it!
***She's perfect inside and out
She has flaws but spend five minutes with her and they will disappear with out a doubt.
She's tough as nails but at the same time so fragile and elegant..a million different reasons to say she's talented.
She's beautiful,the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.
She's perfect.She is the mother of my amazing son. She is my world.She is my wife. She is with out a doubt
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!***
I love it!! :)
***She's perfect inside and out
She has flaws but spend five minutes with her and they will disappear with out a doubt.
She's tough as nails but at the same time so fragile and elegant..a million different reasons to say she's talented.
She's beautiful,the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.
She's perfect.She is the mother of my amazing son. She is my world.She is my wife. She is with out a doubt
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!***
I love it!! :)
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Blog name change
Hey y'all! I decided to change the name of my blog. I decided this fits the blog a lot better!
The Little Things
I am sitting here thinking about all the little things in life. The actual little things that matter. I have the need to share them with y'all.
*** I have a song that will forever be meaningful to me. Second Chance by Shinedown. It was my high school graduation song, but it is more than just a song. When I walked to this song at graduation, it felt right. Well, a few months later it was time for me to leave home for college. I packed my stuff in my truck the night before. That morning it was a tearful goodbye to my momma and family. I got in my truck to leave and Second Chance was what I heard on the radio the minute I started my truck. It brought tears to my eyes. After being on the road for about 10 minutes, my mom text me one little quote "Goodbye is a second chance".It is from the song Second Chance. Again, it brought tears to my eyes. About 8 months later, I was on my way to Tennessee to be with my boyfriend (my husband) when Second Chance came on over the radio. At that point I realized once again, I was making a huge decision in my life and it felt right!
*** I remember when I was pregnant and my husband had to go to training in Louisiana in May. He was in the Army. Well, the day he left was the day I got to hear my son's heart beat for the first time at my dr. appointment. He left a few hours before my appointment, so he didn't get to hear the heartbeat with me. It was the most magical thing I had ever heard, but it was sad and lonely at the same time because he wasn't there with me and I know he wanted to be. So, I recorded it and sent it to his phone. I know it wasn't the same but it was better than nothing. It is the thought that matters.
*** Recently, my husband and I had a rough few months. We were split up and on the verge of a divorce. He wanted to save our marriage but I was not sure if it was for the best. He changed my mind with his actions and words. He went out of his way to make me see what we had. He wrote me a beautiful poem and amazing notes. In one of his notes he said "I never thought in a million years I would find true love but I truly love u with all my heart." For some reason, this changed my mind because I realized I truly loved him. I could see how much he loved me by how hard he tried to save what we had. That little sentence changed my way of thinking.
*** Last night, we went to Walmart just to get out of our small apartment. We ended up searching for about 45 minutes for a toy for Dillon that was cool but cheap. We settled with Mr. PotatoHead! About 15 minutes later, I was about to put Dillon in his carseat when he leans over and gives me the sweetest little kiss on the cheek. I know that it was his way of saying thank you. It meant so much to me and filled my heart with joy.
To other people these little things would not mean anything to them but to me they mean the world. These are the things and moments that do not stand out everyday but they make the greatest impacts. They also
are the moments that you have to pay attention to. You have to stop and think about them. These are the moments I cherish.
*** I have a song that will forever be meaningful to me. Second Chance by Shinedown. It was my high school graduation song, but it is more than just a song. When I walked to this song at graduation, it felt right. Well, a few months later it was time for me to leave home for college. I packed my stuff in my truck the night before. That morning it was a tearful goodbye to my momma and family. I got in my truck to leave and Second Chance was what I heard on the radio the minute I started my truck. It brought tears to my eyes. After being on the road for about 10 minutes, my mom text me one little quote "Goodbye is a second chance".It is from the song Second Chance. Again, it brought tears to my eyes. About 8 months later, I was on my way to Tennessee to be with my boyfriend (my husband) when Second Chance came on over the radio. At that point I realized once again, I was making a huge decision in my life and it felt right!
*** I remember when I was pregnant and my husband had to go to training in Louisiana in May. He was in the Army. Well, the day he left was the day I got to hear my son's heart beat for the first time at my dr. appointment. He left a few hours before my appointment, so he didn't get to hear the heartbeat with me. It was the most magical thing I had ever heard, but it was sad and lonely at the same time because he wasn't there with me and I know he wanted to be. So, I recorded it and sent it to his phone. I know it wasn't the same but it was better than nothing. It is the thought that matters.
*** Recently, my husband and I had a rough few months. We were split up and on the verge of a divorce. He wanted to save our marriage but I was not sure if it was for the best. He changed my mind with his actions and words. He went out of his way to make me see what we had. He wrote me a beautiful poem and amazing notes. In one of his notes he said "I never thought in a million years I would find true love but I truly love u with all my heart." For some reason, this changed my mind because I realized I truly loved him. I could see how much he loved me by how hard he tried to save what we had. That little sentence changed my way of thinking.
*** Last night, we went to Walmart just to get out of our small apartment. We ended up searching for about 45 minutes for a toy for Dillon that was cool but cheap. We settled with Mr. PotatoHead! About 15 minutes later, I was about to put Dillon in his carseat when he leans over and gives me the sweetest little kiss on the cheek. I know that it was his way of saying thank you. It meant so much to me and filled my heart with joy.
To other people these little things would not mean anything to them but to me they mean the world. These are the things and moments that do not stand out everyday but they make the greatest impacts. They also
are the moments that you have to pay attention to. You have to stop and think about them. These are the moments I cherish.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Almost 2.
I haven't posted in a few months. I have been extremely busy with my new job. Also, my son is going through Terrible Twos. He is a hand full. I wanted to give a update on my little guy. He will be 2 in November. He is tall and smart. He can talk but prefers not too. He just recently learned to hop and he loves it! He loves to go to the park and his favorite thing to do is slide. He is now very curious in books. He is obsessed with shoes. LOL.
He uses his toys to reach the kitchen counters. So, I have to watch him very carefully. We also just got him a toddler bed. He is learning to sleep in it. He is doing so well. It makes me sad to think he is almost two,but I am glad he is learning new things everyday. I am proud of my big,smart, and healthy little boy. I am a lucky mommy.
He uses his toys to reach the kitchen counters. So, I have to watch him very carefully. We also just got him a toddler bed. He is learning to sleep in it. He is doing so well. It makes me sad to think he is almost two,but I am glad he is learning new things everyday. I am proud of my big,smart, and healthy little boy. I am a lucky mommy.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
A post that has nothing to do with this blog.
So like the title says, this post has nothing to do with the blog. Well maybe a little bit.
So,if you have read my blog you would know that my husband,son, and I live in a house with his family.
When we moved here everything was okay, but recently it has gotten out of control. His family can not stand me anymore and avoid me like the plague. It is a very long story but I plan to tell the short version because I need to rant.
So, my son is a year and a half. He is a sweet kid but he has to defend himself around here. His big cousins (5 year olds) are mean and he has a baby cousin. She is 3 months younger than him but she likes to bite and claw his face. Well, my son had a bite mark on his arm one day and it turned into a bruise. It pissed me off so I ranted on Facebook by posting a picture. The bite mark picture upset my husband's family. It escalated from there. My mother in-law and my 3 sister in-laws wanted to fight me. Now they talk shit behind my back and avoid me. I want to move so bad but my husband doesn't. I am so unhappy. I wish we had our own place. I am tired of being treated like shit. He doesn't understand . I wish he did. I followed him everywhere and moved where he wanted to move. My family lives in Louisiana and he will never move there so that means for me to be with him I can never live in Louisiana again. I will only get short visits with my family and not very often. I have given up
a lot to be with him..So, I wish that he would just move out of this house with me. I would do it for him.
So,if you have read my blog you would know that my husband,son, and I live in a house with his family.
When we moved here everything was okay, but recently it has gotten out of control. His family can not stand me anymore and avoid me like the plague. It is a very long story but I plan to tell the short version because I need to rant.
So, my son is a year and a half. He is a sweet kid but he has to defend himself around here. His big cousins (5 year olds) are mean and he has a baby cousin. She is 3 months younger than him but she likes to bite and claw his face. Well, my son had a bite mark on his arm one day and it turned into a bruise. It pissed me off so I ranted on Facebook by posting a picture. The bite mark picture upset my husband's family. It escalated from there. My mother in-law and my 3 sister in-laws wanted to fight me. Now they talk shit behind my back and avoid me. I want to move so bad but my husband doesn't. I am so unhappy. I wish we had our own place. I am tired of being treated like shit. He doesn't understand . I wish he did. I followed him everywhere and moved where he wanted to move. My family lives in Louisiana and he will never move there so that means for me to be with him I can never live in Louisiana again. I will only get short visits with my family and not very often. I have given up
a lot to be with him..So, I wish that he would just move out of this house with me. I would do it for him.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Lucky Mommy
Mother's Day is tomorrow and it makes me realize how lucky I am. My son is so amazing. He is a year and a half now. He is so smart. I adore this little boy with all my heart. He brightens my days. Dillon changed my life forever but in a wonderful way. I wouldn't have it any other way. The best Mother's Day gift is being able to cuddle and love him. I cherish every moment with him.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Easter 2012
This year was Dillon's second Easter, but this year he was old enough to enjoy it. He had a blast. This is also our first holiday with Emilio's family. The house was VERY full. It went well, but I am glad it is over because I am exhausted. I love my life even though things have been rough lately. I was so happy to spend the day with my son and husband. I am going to share some pictures of the day. I hope y'all all enjoyed your Easter too. Remember to cherish every moment because tomorrow is not guaranteed.
My mother-in-law and the kids |
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DIllon busted his eggs on the floor |
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Falling Apart
We have been in Colorado for about 2 months now. I feel like my marriage is falling apart. My husband and I fight a lot lately. It is because he barely spends time with me. I just want to feel special. The only time he has spent with me was our anniversary. He did an amazing job. He took me to a movie and then out to eat at the Melting Pot. But since then he hasn't really done anything with me. Our anniversary was March 10th. :-/
I am feeling pretty left out. I work hard and all I am asking for is a little family time. I want things to go back to normal but I don't know how to accomplish that.
I am feeling pretty left out. I work hard and all I am asking for is a little family time. I want things to go back to normal but I don't know how to accomplish that.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
My Hobby
My hobby is photography. When I am not working or playing with my son, I prefer to be taking photos. I enjoy it so much. I thought about it as a career,but I think I will just keep it as a hobby.
I want to share some of my photos.I have alot more than these, but here are a few. I hope yall enjoy them and have a wonderful day!!
I want to share some of my photos.I have alot more than these, but here are a few. I hope yall enjoy them and have a wonderful day!!
Thursday, March 15, 2012
My new job
I have worked the fast food/restaurant business since I was 15. I have worked my way up from the bottom and I am proud to say that I just got a new job here in Colorado. I am an associate manager at Sonic now. I am so excited and I have been waiting for this for a long time. I just wanted to share my excitement with y'all!! Thank you for listening!
Dear Dillon
Dear Dillon,
You are asleep next to me as I write this. I want you to know how much i love you. You truly are the most amazing little boy in this big, bad world. When I look back on my life, I have a few accomplishments that I am proud of. I am proud of myself for graduating high school, attending college for that short bit of time, and being a hard worker. But my proudest moment is the day that I became your mommy! You are my pride and joy. Your little smiles and innocent giggles brighten my days. You have changed my life for the best! You will always be my baby boy. I hope that you will grow up to be a strong, smart, and respectable man. I will NEVER turn my back on you! I will love you forever! Never forget that!
With love,
Your mommy
You are asleep next to me as I write this. I want you to know how much i love you. You truly are the most amazing little boy in this big, bad world. When I look back on my life, I have a few accomplishments that I am proud of. I am proud of myself for graduating high school, attending college for that short bit of time, and being a hard worker. But my proudest moment is the day that I became your mommy! You are my pride and joy. Your little smiles and innocent giggles brighten my days. You have changed my life for the best! You will always be my baby boy. I hope that you will grow up to be a strong, smart, and respectable man. I will NEVER turn my back on you! I will love you forever! Never forget that!
With love,
Your mommy
Friday, March 9, 2012
My Tough Little Guy
It has been a rough few weeks for my little guy. The adjustment to Colorado has been hard on him. Our first few days here, he had a bad rash under his neck. He then came down with a cold. We battled with his fever for a few days. One morning he woke up with a fever of 104.9. The fevers scared me to death because he NEVER gets sick. Well, we finally got the cold to go away,but then literally a day later he really did a number on himself. He was running around the living room with a pillow. He tripped over the pillow and fell on my mother-in-law's wheelchair. He cut his nose all up. We had to take him to the hospital. All I saw was blood and I panicked.
While we were at the hospital his nose finally stopped bleeding. The doctor didn't do anything helpful and they sent up home. He only cried when the doctor touched it. He was such a good boy.
Not long after his nose incident he started throwing up and had the runs. My poor little guy just couldn't get a break. He looks like he is finally over all the viruses/flu. His nose is healing well and he has handled it like a champ.
The only problem we are having now is his cranky attitude. I guess the "Terrible 2's" have hit early. He can be a real brat lately. I think a lot of it has to do with all the changes lately. I wish I could fix it for him,but I don't know how. He has his good days and then he has his bad. I really like him on his good days. LOL. He is a lot more fun and we can do more.
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Dillon having fun at the park with his cousins. |
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Dill and his cousin Tiny swinging.
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