Adjusting

So, we made it to Colorado. The trip was long but we are here. Dillon did well on the trip. He mostly slept the whole way. He did get his cranky spells but the rest stops helped. I let him get out and run around at the rest stops. He enjoyed it a lot. He learned how to turn the automatic sinks on at the rest stops. He was so fascinated with them.

We spent most of Valentine's Day driving but we spent it together. My little bitty family on the road together. I snapped a few pictures on the way.

It was a relief to finally get here. We found a big house. It pretty nice and has a ton of room. Everyone is comfortable. This is Dillon's first time being around so many kids. He is loving it. He likes to chase his big cousins around. They are 4 years old.

He loves to play with his cousin Tiana (Tiny). She is only 3 months younger than him. He shares with her and plays with her all day long. They even have their highchairs next to each other. They eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner together.

Dillon is really good about sharing but he is confused when one of the kids doesn't share with him. If one of the kids takes a toy from him, he just looks confused. He doesn't get mad and fights back. He just finds another toy to play with. I am trying to teach the other kiddos to share so that Dill doesn't start getting mean about his toys.

Dillon is getting so big. He is becoming a wonderful little boy. I am so proud of him. He is my whole world and I can't wait to see him grow and develop more. He is so smart and just keeps getting smarter by the day. I adore and love this boy so much!!

We are still adjusting but it is going good! I hope it continues this way!

I love you..

I love you
for all that you are.
All that you have been
and all that you have yet to be.

Goodbye Army Life

So tomorrow (Friday the 10th), My husband will officially be out of the Army. We both have mixed emotions about it. I know he wants to stay in. He enjoys his job but he can not do it anymore. I am proud of him. He is a very dedicated soldier and strong leader. I hope he can find a job that makes him just as happy in the civilian world. I honestly like being a Army Wife. It makes me proud.. I know I sound a little silly. And of course the benefits are always a plus. I will always support my husband in the things he wants to do...as long as they are logical and sort of smart. LoL. I want him to make good decisions for our little family. I know that some Army wives think that I haven't endured as much as them. My husband and I have been married almost 2 years now, but he has not had to deploy during our marriage. He was held back from his last deployment because he suffered hearing lose. This is the reason he can not continue his job in the Army. My husband was told a week before deployment that he could not deploy. This was hard on him. He thought he was letting his fellow soldiers down. Everyone told me that I was lucky he didn't deploy. They said at least he gets to be there for his son's birth. Yes, this is true. I was happy he would be there for Dillon's birth but it also put us in serious debt. We couldn't pay off our bills with the extra money that deployment would provide. Of course,money isn't everything. I expected the bills and debt, but what I didn't expect were the remarks. I heard everything you could think of. Someone said that my husband was less of a man and soldier for not deploying. He dealt with remarks from Army wives and other fellow soldiers. He did not choose to stay behind. He wanted to deploy but of course that did not mean anything to the others. They saw what they wanted to see. I saw a man that felt like he betrayed his friends. My husband lost his dad and grandmother within 3 months of the start of that deployment. He almost missed his son's birth because of his dad's death. We struggled with bills and money. He had no friends to talk to during this time. He only had Dillon and I. His Army career came to an abrupt halt. His life was turned upside down in just a few months. I wish my husband had got to do the things he wanted to do. To this day, I still think that he is the strongest man I know. I am still so proud to be his wife. Soldier or not he will always be my hero.
And for everyone that doubted my husband..I feel sorry for you. You looked down on a man in his weakest moments. You hid behind words. You are the weak ones. My husband has ten times the strength that you have. He is more of man than you or your husbands will ever be. He is a true soldier. One that is willing to give up everything to fight for his country.

And I..I may not have had to stay behind while my husband left..I may not have had to sleep alone for months at a time...But I did stand behind my man when it counted the most. I was there for him and I never turned my back on him. I believe that is what counts. I believe that is the true definition of a Army wife.
Tomorrow, we will say goodbye to the Army life. Time for a new start. I hope for the best.

Stressing Out

Lately, I have been stressing out big time. We move in about a week and I don't know if I am ready. We have a lot less money than we expected to have for the move. The movers broke my son's crib and packed our dirty clothes. I had all my clothes in that basket and some of them were wet. UGH! Oh and we still don't have a house in Colorado yet. I am just a little overwhelmed. I am still trying to regulate Dillon's sleep schedule and get him to sleep in his crib (right now his playpen). He is doing better but it is going to be a long struggle. He has stopped taking the bottle all together.Except the few times my husband has given it to him. I am proud of Dill.



Trying to dress his self.     :)

He is so big and smart now. He does so many things that other toddlers his age can't do. I live for my son. He is the most amazing and sweetest little boy ever. The last few days, he has been very sweet. He will walk up out of no where and give me hugs and kisses. He just started this. His usual kisses are more like biting. Also on Saturday night, we went out to eat and watched a movie. Dill was so well behaved,which surprised me because he was very cranky before hand. He didn't cause any trouble at the restaurant. He was actually being a little flirt. He kept smiling at a lady across from us and he was trying to talk to a little girl at another table near us. He was very good at the movies too. He fell asleep half way through. My little boy is growing up so fast. It is hard to grasp. The time flies by quickly, but that just reminds me everyday to spend as much time with him as possible. Carpe Diem----Seize the Day

Valentine's Day Photo Shoot

Today, I took pictures of my son for Valentine's Day! I loved how they turned out! and it is really hard to make a toddler stay still!