Being Judged

I am sure everyone out there has been judged at some point in their life and I am sure you have judged someone before also. No one is an saint. But there does come a point when judging becomes bullying and that is no good.
Lately, I have felt bullied. I feel like everything I do or say is being criticized. My work, life, parenting skills. It can really get you down.

I still have extra baby weight from my pregnancy. It brings me down often. Don't get me wrong.. I am not severely over-weight. I just have a few pudgy parts. I am not the thin, curvy, and toned girl I was a few years ago. I am still curvy though! Lol.
Recently, I wanted to join the Airforce. So, I went to talk to a recruiter. I was turned away and treated like shit because of my weight. He literally told me "You need to lose weight. Oh! You work at Sonic? You should cut back on the Sonic food". I was stunned and pissed! How dare this man tell me I am fat! Who is he to judge me? What gives him the right? His words did get to me though. I was heartbroken. I have tried diets and working out but I lose my motivation. I have come to a conclusion though. Yes, I may have extra weight, but I am still beautiful! My son and husband will love me no matter what. I need to learn to love the new me! If,I lose the weight good for me! If not, I shouldn't get depressed and hate myself. I gave birth to a child and not just any child! My son! My amazing, smart, and healthy little boy! If the extra weight and stretch marks are not worth it than there is something wrong with me! Lol!
I think everyone should have a good outlook on people and theirselves! Personality is what really matters! If you are an ugly person on the inside than I believe you are just as ugly in the inside!
BUT... If you are kind, honest, and trustworthy person it will shine through! No matter how you look!
*You have a big nose?Well better to smell with! :)
*You are short? Well hey so am I!
* You are going bald? Well, that means less money to spend on haircuts, gel, and a brush!
* You are covered in tattoos? Good for you! Express yourself! It doesn't make you a bad person!
* You are in a wheelchair? Let's pimp your ride! :) (hey don't judge me I have seen it)
*You have braces? Wait until those puppies come off then you are going to have a great smile!

But anyways! No matter what may bring you down.. There is always a better perspective!
Do not let someone judge you! Do not be criticized or bullied. Throw a comeback their way! Add humor or optimism. It will make you feel 10x better! You are beautiful, smart, funny, fun, and talented! Show them that side of you! Prove it to yourself!
Do not stand for being the butt of jokes! They are not perfect! No one is! Everyone has flaws! It defines us!
So flaunt what you got! Show the world your big nose, bald head, wheelchair tricks, and great smile! Be proud of who you are, because there is only one of YOU! That means you are special edition! One of a kind! You are worth ALOT! You are like that Star Wars collectible! Lol!

Recent Pictures I Want to Share

So! Here are some pictures I have from recently and I want to share! Enjoy!

The Poem

My husband wrote me this poem and I really want to share it!

***She's perfect inside and out
She has flaws but spend five minutes with her and they will disappear with out a doubt.
She's tough as nails but at the same time so fragile and elegant..a million different reasons to say she's talented.

She's beautiful,the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.

She's perfect.She is the mother of my amazing son. She is my world.She is my wife. She is with out a doubt
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!***

I love it!! :)

Blog name change

Hey y'all! I decided to change the name of my blog. I decided this fits the blog a lot better!

The Little Things

I am sitting here thinking about all the little things in life. The actual little things that matter. I have the need to share them with y'all.
*** I have a song that will forever be meaningful to me. Second Chance by Shinedown. It was my high school graduation song, but it is more than just a song. When I walked to this song at graduation, it felt right. Well, a few months later it was time for me to leave home for college. I packed my stuff in my truck the night before. That morning it was a tearful goodbye to my momma and family. I got in my truck to leave and Second Chance was what I heard on the radio the minute I started my truck. It brought tears to my eyes. After being on the road for about 10 minutes, my mom text me one little quote "Goodbye is a second chance".It is from the song Second Chance. Again, it brought tears to my eyes. About 8 months later, I was on my way to Tennessee to be with my boyfriend (my husband) when Second Chance came on over the radio. At that point I realized once again, I was making a huge decision in my life and it felt right!
*** I remember when I was pregnant and my husband had to go to training in Louisiana in May. He was in the Army. Well, the day he left was the day I got to hear my son's heart beat for the first time at my dr. appointment. He left a few hours before my appointment, so he didn't get to hear the heartbeat with me. It was the most magical thing I had ever heard, but it was sad and lonely at the same time because he wasn't there with me and I know he wanted to be. So, I recorded it and sent it to his phone. I know it wasn't the same but it was better than nothing. It is the thought that matters.
*** Recently, my husband and I had a rough few months. We were split up and on the verge of a divorce. He wanted to save our marriage but I was not sure if it was for the best. He changed my mind with his actions and words. He went out of his way to make me see what we had. He wrote me a beautiful poem and amazing notes. In one of his notes he said "I never thought in a million years I would find true love but I truly love u with all my heart." For some reason, this changed my mind because I realized I truly loved him. I could see how much he loved me by how hard he tried to save what we had. That little sentence changed my way of thinking.
*** Last night, we went to Walmart just to get out of our small apartment. We ended up searching for about 45 minutes for a toy for Dillon that was cool but cheap. We settled with Mr. PotatoHead! About 15 minutes later, I was about to put Dillon in his carseat when he leans over and gives me the sweetest little kiss on the cheek. I know that it was his way of saying thank you. It meant so much to me and filled my heart with joy.

To other people these little things would not mean anything to them but to me they mean the world. These are the things and moments that do not stand out everyday but they make the greatest impacts. They also
are the moments that you have to pay attention to. You have to stop and think about them. These are the moments I cherish.

Almost 2.

I haven't posted in a few months. I have been extremely busy with my new job. Also, my son is going through Terrible Twos. He is a hand full. I wanted to give a update on my little guy. He will be 2 in November. He is tall and smart. He can talk but prefers not too. He just recently learned to hop and he loves it! He loves to go to the park and his favorite thing to do is slide. He is now very curious in books. He is obsessed with shoes. LOL.
He uses his toys to reach the kitchen counters. So, I have to watch him very carefully. We also just got him a toddler bed. He is learning to sleep in it. He is doing so well. It makes me sad to think he is almost two,but I am glad he is learning new things everyday. I am proud of my big,smart, and healthy little boy. I am a lucky mommy.

A post that has nothing to do with this blog.

So like the title says, this post has nothing to do with the blog. Well maybe a little bit.
So,if you have read my blog you would know that my husband,son, and I live in a house with his family.
When we moved here everything was okay, but recently it has gotten out of control. His family can not stand me anymore and avoid me like the plague. It is a very long story but I plan to tell the short version because I need to rant.
So, my son is a year and a half. He is a sweet kid but he has to defend himself around here. His big cousins (5 year olds) are mean and he has a baby cousin. She is 3 months younger than him but she likes to bite and claw his face. Well, my son had a bite mark on his arm one day and it turned into a bruise. It pissed me off so I ranted on Facebook by posting a picture. The bite mark picture upset my husband's family. It escalated from there. My mother in-law and my 3 sister in-laws wanted to fight me. Now they talk shit behind my back and avoid me. I want to move so bad but my husband doesn't. I am so unhappy. I wish we had our own place. I am tired of being treated like shit. He doesn't understand . I wish he did. I followed him everywhere and moved where he wanted to move. My family lives in Louisiana and he will never move there so that means for me to be with him I can never live in Louisiana again. I will only get short visits with my family and not very often. I have given up
a lot to be with him..So, I wish that he would just move out of this house with me. I would do it for him.